This few week really too free till i do not know what should i do. Everyday facebooking and keep looking for other people profile. Hahahaha.... Maybe it had been too long when i last so actively in facebook ba.
Some question come in my mind that i cannot answer it now. Also do not know how to deal with it. Prayer is heavily needed as i would not do any decision that will make me regret for whole life. Question.... question... question....
At least provide me with some evidence or assurance so that i know what i should do now. Mature thinking and action need to be cooperate at the same time. Feel like so many uncertain in front of me till smart person like me also will be jammed. Time to leave it to Our All mighty Lord. For me, i have done my part and now i can not proceed because i do not know any of my action will bring some negative effect in this manner. Lord, pls provide me with wisdom to deal with this matter.
Concentrate for my coming Lifegame Camp serving at Sibu this coming holiday. The time that i can really concentrate to do things that i want. Hehehe.... Looking forward for that.
Thanks God for everything that He provide and pray to Him for the one that He will prepare and also the plan that He will invest in my life.....
2012年7月30日星期一
2011年10月15日星期六
Planning from me or God
Feel really tiring this few day. Unstoppable work and training. Expectation and hoping from company. Make me feel like want to escape from this circumstances....
Thursday nite got the chance to chat with one of my buddy. Ask regarding his future. Feel thankful to him as he knew wat he did now. Pray in heart so that he can make his dream becum reality under God planning. Another fren who will go to theology school to study next year also keep encouraging me. By joke, i tell him "who know nexy year i will sit beside u?" Hahaha.... But down from my heart, i feel hard to make it.
I am sure that at the time being to fully served God as a Pastor is not the planning of God for me. If it is so, early during my secondary school, i already went for theological studies. In my own planning, i prefer to serve in a christian ministries which is carried on the game for those teenager and unbeliever. Counselling and encouraging other is the GIFT given by God to me. That why till now lots of fren will share their thing to me.
One of my fren told me that if his planning is not fulfill by God this time. He will start his career life and give himself another 10 year before he step bek to his full time serving life. His decision quite shocked me as in my opinion, i know that god had His own planning on everyone. Instead of we planned for ourselves, why not we just continue our current life and left God to plan for the blur and beautiful future of us. After i really think through it after i work in the jungle laz nite, i think that we need to be aggresive and active instead of passively let other to plan for us. Maybe God already give us the way but we did not notice it due to attracted abd engaged by this world vision.
Everything seems fine for me now as i just confirmed by company this month. Will have a new task and expectation from the company. My planning toward my future home is still in progress. My current family, financially, harmonily is running well. It is like a heaven picture for my life now. Working for the weekday, when come bek from work during weekend, gt the geng of fren who will limteh and sing k wif me. Great....
But i know that we have our own mission in this world. Those thing that seems to be gud but after u experience through it is harm to our serving to God. At the stage now, i cnt do any changing for my life becoz i dun have any foundation to do that and i also gt a lot of thing to care. But after 8 year, maybe i will take a step forward with the blessing from God. This 8 year from now, i will expose myself to this society. Breakthrough the life of people whether in work, church or family, i think this will provide me with lots of lifetime experience when i serve God one day. Learn as much thing as i can although i already jump into this society for one year. But i just feel like innocent and naive toward those so-call experienced people.
God, protect my heart and continue burning my glow to u. Hope wat i do can really glorify ur name in this world... Looking forward for this weekend. Expected a meaningful and warm weekened as will meet some fren from other place. Another sharing moment among my buddy. I like this type of feeling and i really treasure it as who know this will change after all of them start their career soon....
Thursday nite got the chance to chat with one of my buddy. Ask regarding his future. Feel thankful to him as he knew wat he did now. Pray in heart so that he can make his dream becum reality under God planning. Another fren who will go to theology school to study next year also keep encouraging me. By joke, i tell him "who know nexy year i will sit beside u?" Hahaha.... But down from my heart, i feel hard to make it.
I am sure that at the time being to fully served God as a Pastor is not the planning of God for me. If it is so, early during my secondary school, i already went for theological studies. In my own planning, i prefer to serve in a christian ministries which is carried on the game for those teenager and unbeliever. Counselling and encouraging other is the GIFT given by God to me. That why till now lots of fren will share their thing to me.
One of my fren told me that if his planning is not fulfill by God this time. He will start his career life and give himself another 10 year before he step bek to his full time serving life. His decision quite shocked me as in my opinion, i know that god had His own planning on everyone. Instead of we planned for ourselves, why not we just continue our current life and left God to plan for the blur and beautiful future of us. After i really think through it after i work in the jungle laz nite, i think that we need to be aggresive and active instead of passively let other to plan for us. Maybe God already give us the way but we did not notice it due to attracted abd engaged by this world vision.
Everything seems fine for me now as i just confirmed by company this month. Will have a new task and expectation from the company. My planning toward my future home is still in progress. My current family, financially, harmonily is running well. It is like a heaven picture for my life now. Working for the weekday, when come bek from work during weekend, gt the geng of fren who will limteh and sing k wif me. Great....
But i know that we have our own mission in this world. Those thing that seems to be gud but after u experience through it is harm to our serving to God. At the stage now, i cnt do any changing for my life becoz i dun have any foundation to do that and i also gt a lot of thing to care. But after 8 year, maybe i will take a step forward with the blessing from God. This 8 year from now, i will expose myself to this society. Breakthrough the life of people whether in work, church or family, i think this will provide me with lots of lifetime experience when i serve God one day. Learn as much thing as i can although i already jump into this society for one year. But i just feel like innocent and naive toward those so-call experienced people.
God, protect my heart and continue burning my glow to u. Hope wat i do can really glorify ur name in this world... Looking forward for this weekend. Expected a meaningful and warm weekened as will meet some fren from other place. Another sharing moment among my buddy. I like this type of feeling and i really treasure it as who know this will change after all of them start their career soon....
2011年9月28日星期三
四季
从小就有小小的梦想，总有一天要踏足于四季之乡。享受那不属于热带国家的熏陶... 坐在摇晃不停的快艇，我的思绪又编织了无数个幻想的空间...
春天
立足于西藏高原的大草原...
绿猷青葱的草地，高耸入云的雪山...
传说对西藏原住民来说，雪山乃是先人过失后灵魂的安息地...
躺卧于草地，眺望一啷无际的蓝天，不时远处传来牛羊的低鸣声...
暂时使人抛下尘世间所有的重担，压力...
享受着被大自然所洗涤的灵魂的舒醒...
白花齐放，鸟语花香...
小小的梦想，于爱侣男耕女织...
小孩追着梅花鹿...
一家人 追求属于我们的天堂...
夏天
牵着骆驼，漫步于黄昏的大沙漠...
尘土纷飞，无数滚滚的黄沙...
仿佛向人类宣告属于他们的主权...
是的...望着无尽头的沙漠...
感觉到人类的微笑...
曾几何时，那无数的黄沙低下...
埋着古人类的文明，无数的战争...
试问千禧世纪的文明，哪一个不是从先人流血舍身而研发出来的呢...
踏足于黄沙上，心灵间仿佛聆听着先人们的呼声...
是的，现金的人类被太多属世的喧哗遮掩了双耳...
听不到世上那呼求者的呼声...
我聆听，在这无人的沙漠...
那造物主对我的声音...
秋天
秋天的童话...属于那樱花之都...
曾经迷茫于墨尔本的秋天，秋黄的树叶，微带凉意的秋风...
小时的梦想，一定要置身于樱花之国...
观赏樱花散落，尤其在缤纷细雨中...
沁入心脾...
鸟瞰远处，不时看见不同国度的人，在这唯美的时刻，留下人生的回忆...
迎着秋天微凉的溪风，闭上双眊，用身心去感受这不属尘土的洗涤...
呼... 呼出一口气，在无数的花瓣伴舞中，
留下安静的足迹....
冬天
漫步于浪漫之都-巴黎...
特别喜欢冬天，因这时人都特别安静...
眺望无数的情侣在这冬季中为对方许下终生的承诺...
未有家室的我，心中默默为他们送上祝福...
盼望真有那么一天，我和她能相约在这冬季的巴黎...
在上帝及铁塔的见证下，我对她许下属于我和她的承诺...
冬季...是个祝福人的季节...
或许有一天我将会一个人，慢慢的走在这香波街上...
但，属于一个人的冬天，心里却是温暖的...
雪花飘飘，月光萧瑟...
不知冬天的夜空，我会不会听到...
那祝福的旋律...
如果有，我愿安寝于这交响曲中...
今晚的夜空，宁静萧瑟...
梦醒时分，发觉这是南柯一梦....
但属于我的天空，时间依然不等待...
置身于这尘世，我还是要...
追求那有永恒价值的盼望...
春天
立足于西藏高原的大草原...
绿猷青葱的草地，高耸入云的雪山...
传说对西藏原住民来说，雪山乃是先人过失后灵魂的安息地...
躺卧于草地，眺望一啷无际的蓝天，不时远处传来牛羊的低鸣声...
暂时使人抛下尘世间所有的重担，压力...
享受着被大自然所洗涤的灵魂的舒醒...
白花齐放，鸟语花香...
小小的梦想，于爱侣男耕女织...
小孩追着梅花鹿...
一家人 追求属于我们的天堂...
夏天
牵着骆驼，漫步于黄昏的大沙漠...
尘土纷飞，无数滚滚的黄沙...
仿佛向人类宣告属于他们的主权...
是的...望着无尽头的沙漠...
感觉到人类的微笑...
曾几何时，那无数的黄沙低下...
埋着古人类的文明，无数的战争...
试问千禧世纪的文明，哪一个不是从先人流血舍身而研发出来的呢...
踏足于黄沙上，心灵间仿佛聆听着先人们的呼声...
是的，现金的人类被太多属世的喧哗遮掩了双耳...
听不到世上那呼求者的呼声...
我聆听，在这无人的沙漠...
那造物主对我的声音...
秋天
秋天的童话...属于那樱花之都...
曾经迷茫于墨尔本的秋天，秋黄的树叶，微带凉意的秋风...
小时的梦想，一定要置身于樱花之国...
观赏樱花散落，尤其在缤纷细雨中...
沁入心脾...
鸟瞰远处，不时看见不同国度的人，在这唯美的时刻，留下人生的回忆...
迎着秋天微凉的溪风，闭上双眊，用身心去感受这不属尘土的洗涤...
呼... 呼出一口气，在无数的花瓣伴舞中，
留下安静的足迹....
冬天
漫步于浪漫之都-巴黎...
特别喜欢冬天，因这时人都特别安静...
眺望无数的情侣在这冬季中为对方许下终生的承诺...
未有家室的我，心中默默为他们送上祝福...
盼望真有那么一天，我和她能相约在这冬季的巴黎...
在上帝及铁塔的见证下，我对她许下属于我和她的承诺...
冬季...是个祝福人的季节...
或许有一天我将会一个人，慢慢的走在这香波街上...
但，属于一个人的冬天，心里却是温暖的...
雪花飘飘，月光萧瑟...
不知冬天的夜空，我会不会听到...
那祝福的旋律...
如果有，我愿安寝于这交响曲中...
今晚的夜空，宁静萧瑟...
梦醒时分，发觉这是南柯一梦....
但属于我的天空，时间依然不等待...
置身于这尘世，我还是要...
追求那有永恒价值的盼望...
2011年9月17日星期六
Pontianak Lifecamp
Get the chance to serve in Pontianak Lifecamp during the Raya vacation. Second "overcoutry" serving after the Melbourne lifecamp. Taking express bus going through half of Sarawak, from Sibu to Kuching and then imigration at a place that i forget. Step pass the country by-line. Yeah.... Among 8 of us we shout together coz we oledi in foreign country, Indonesia also it is not " over the Sea". Hahaha....
Arrive Pontianak quite late evening, just step down from the bus, oledi feel the warm and dry wind blowed to our face. Wow!!!! Totally different experience wif winter Melbourne. Here is really hot like sauna and spa. We as if walk in the bbq dinner party as the air here is contaminated by released smoke during to open air burning and the suffering is this been done during the dry season.. Oh man!!!!!
First time i serve those indonesian teenager and feel really different. Firstly, languages barrier. Actually i am so confident with my language mastering but my Bahasa Melayu Sarawak is totally cant be used here. Wat i tell them, they dun understand and wat they tell me, i barely understand little bit. Oh.... really hard and gt a little bit discourage. Mainly this is the chance for me to talk more to them, know their lifestyle, understand their current position and try to encourage them. But here for me is facing a really tough challenge. So, i am proud of those Belle and Sharon who will to go for mission here. i think they must be facing the same problem during their early time here.
Second, culture shock!!!! For the first time in my life, i have rice and salted fish for my breakfast. OH MAN!!!!! 不能接受!!!! Here no kampua or kolo mee de?? After asking from those who had been here for sometime, i know that most of the indonesian need to do tough and hard work who need more energy. So for them, they need to have rice for their meal so that they can substain to work for a long time. Never mind, it' s a good experience of me. Down in my heart, i feel that all the indonesian people must be feel great if they have sumthing to eat assum of them come from poor and underpaying family. Thanks God for providing them wat they need.
This camp give me a different experience. As all the volunteers will wake up in the morning to sing and sharing the bible knowledge, the indonesian teenager wake up even early compare to us. i feel proud and encourage by their spirit. 5 o'clock in the morning!!!! this is the time i sleep the warmest and sweetness!! But they already "make a call" to God at this time. this really remind me of our behaviour to God. We live in such a glorious and peaceful country. Religion is free and not restricted and most of us need not to help our parent in their farming or other work. Actually we have more time to get closed with God, but are we treasure our time??
From Belle and Sharon, i have been encourage by their spirit. At the time most of the teenager thinking of which university i should go? which smart phone i should have? which girl or boy should i chase? which country should i go during my vacation? they already decide to serve God full time. Remind me of my promise to God. There is one day God will asking back from me.
Still waiting for the call of God, when the time and chance is there, i sure will put down everything and walk for God. I know that God have His own planning wat i need to do is wait and them humble to obey. it is not a hard task for me as wat i have now is all from God. Without Him, i am nothing in this world, just a normal guy borned by my parent.
Crucified.. Lay behind a stone...
You lived to die... Rejected and alone....
Like a rose... Trampled on the ground...
You took the fall.... And thought of me...
Above all...
Tears falling everytime i listen this song. I think there is no one in this world except Jesus Christ is borned to live to die. I wish to give the most valuable thing of me to God. MY LIFE... Fully been His servant in lifeimpact ministries. Waiting from His call and now i just need to equip myself so that i can serve Him well when the opportunity is coming...
Arrive Pontianak quite late evening, just step down from the bus, oledi feel the warm and dry wind blowed to our face. Wow!!!! Totally different experience wif winter Melbourne. Here is really hot like sauna and spa. We as if walk in the bbq dinner party as the air here is contaminated by released smoke during to open air burning and the suffering is this been done during the dry season.. Oh man!!!!!
First time i serve those indonesian teenager and feel really different. Firstly, languages barrier. Actually i am so confident with my language mastering but my Bahasa Melayu Sarawak is totally cant be used here. Wat i tell them, they dun understand and wat they tell me, i barely understand little bit. Oh.... really hard and gt a little bit discourage. Mainly this is the chance for me to talk more to them, know their lifestyle, understand their current position and try to encourage them. But here for me is facing a really tough challenge. So, i am proud of those Belle and Sharon who will to go for mission here. i think they must be facing the same problem during their early time here.
Second, culture shock!!!! For the first time in my life, i have rice and salted fish for my breakfast. OH MAN!!!!! 不能接受!!!! Here no kampua or kolo mee de?? After asking from those who had been here for sometime, i know that most of the indonesian need to do tough and hard work who need more energy. So for them, they need to have rice for their meal so that they can substain to work for a long time. Never mind, it' s a good experience of me. Down in my heart, i feel that all the indonesian people must be feel great if they have sumthing to eat assum of them come from poor and underpaying family. Thanks God for providing them wat they need.
This camp give me a different experience. As all the volunteers will wake up in the morning to sing and sharing the bible knowledge, the indonesian teenager wake up even early compare to us. i feel proud and encourage by their spirit. 5 o'clock in the morning!!!! this is the time i sleep the warmest and sweetness!! But they already "make a call" to God at this time. this really remind me of our behaviour to God. We live in such a glorious and peaceful country. Religion is free and not restricted and most of us need not to help our parent in their farming or other work. Actually we have more time to get closed with God, but are we treasure our time??
From Belle and Sharon, i have been encourage by their spirit. At the time most of the teenager thinking of which university i should go? which smart phone i should have? which girl or boy should i chase? which country should i go during my vacation? they already decide to serve God full time. Remind me of my promise to God. There is one day God will asking back from me.
Still waiting for the call of God, when the time and chance is there, i sure will put down everything and walk for God. I know that God have His own planning wat i need to do is wait and them humble to obey. it is not a hard task for me as wat i have now is all from God. Without Him, i am nothing in this world, just a normal guy borned by my parent.
Crucified.. Lay behind a stone...
You lived to die... Rejected and alone....
Like a rose... Trampled on the ground...
You took the fall.... And thought of me...
Above all...
Tears falling everytime i listen this song. I think there is no one in this world except Jesus Christ is borned to live to die. I wish to give the most valuable thing of me to God. MY LIFE... Fully been His servant in lifeimpact ministries. Waiting from His call and now i just need to equip myself so that i can serve Him well when the opportunity is coming...
2011年7月17日星期日
~~~Waiting~~~
Already joined my new company for more than 4 months, feel like everything go smooth like those i plan before. Feeling great for wat i have now and continue to striking for my goal.
On 3/7-10/7, i am pleased for giving the opportunity to serve in Lifegame Camp in Melbourne, Australia. It' s a amazing experience and once again my spiritual life is being regened after the camp. Walking down the Melbourne city street, experienced the winter cool weather there and down in my heart, i thank God for His wonderful creation. I am really being adored by the scenery of this city and also the culture of Australian. From one of the sister there, the culture there is "polite" culture and that why when the pedestrian want to cross the busy street, we can see that the vehicles there will automatically stopped to allow the pedestrain to cross it first. Wau!!! i hardly can believe it as feel shame to say that this culture is impossible to implement in my own country. Malaysia, we are much too far left behind by those wstern company. Just one word can describe, Uncivilization!!!!
Serving in the camp provide me with the refresh of my previous serving to God. I feel great and warm even though i still cant get use to the cool weather there until most of my lips is bleeding coz of drying. Actually long time ago, i have a mission in my mind, to fully serve in the Lifeimpact Ministries. I still remember that this is my promise to God when i joined the camp, i hope to be the nucleus partner for this ministries. From the Melbourne camp, i know that the church community there have the idea to set up Australia Lifeteam there. Purposely to help the Australia Church in developing their teenager and enable them to find their purpose of life. I felt like God is calling to me. But i not sure whether this is the calling from God is merely my own dream.....
To serve there, i need to get a permanent resident status there and for the foreigner like me, the easiest way is to find a job there. The company that i worked now had a team at Australia, i felt like really wan to transfer from Sarawak to Australia. From the night sharing with Pastor Kwan, he do encouraged me to take this step seriously and bravely. He mentioned the limited of those servant at Australia and if they really wan to set up this Australia team, they need more people to join them especially those who are more experience. I dare to take this challenge but are this really a good choice for me?? i dunno...
Honestly, i felt hard to put down all my thing in Malaysia and just fly over to serve there. My family, my career, my fren, my gf and many others.... Everything is just fine and good for me now if i stay in Sarawak, but i dunno why i still of thinking of this matter currently. i know the gospel factory in Australia is big. I really wan to help them but how?? Just feel like God is calling me. But i need more prayer to justify it. Coz my decision will affect most of the things now....
Now staying in KL, waiting for my training on Monday. On 29/8-31/8, i will serve in Lifegame Camp at Pontianak, Indonesia. Pray for me and hope God will speak to me that time. God, please lead my way, listen Your will but not my hope. Prepare everything for me and provide me with wisdom to make this decision. When the time come, i will follow your plan coz You noe me better than others in this world. Hope my serving will glorify Your name in this world.
On 3/7-10/7, i am pleased for giving the opportunity to serve in Lifegame Camp in Melbourne, Australia. It' s a amazing experience and once again my spiritual life is being regened after the camp. Walking down the Melbourne city street, experienced the winter cool weather there and down in my heart, i thank God for His wonderful creation. I am really being adored by the scenery of this city and also the culture of Australian. From one of the sister there, the culture there is "polite" culture and that why when the pedestrian want to cross the busy street, we can see that the vehicles there will automatically stopped to allow the pedestrain to cross it first. Wau!!! i hardly can believe it as feel shame to say that this culture is impossible to implement in my own country. Malaysia, we are much too far left behind by those wstern company. Just one word can describe, Uncivilization!!!!
Serving in the camp provide me with the refresh of my previous serving to God. I feel great and warm even though i still cant get use to the cool weather there until most of my lips is bleeding coz of drying. Actually long time ago, i have a mission in my mind, to fully serve in the Lifeimpact Ministries. I still remember that this is my promise to God when i joined the camp, i hope to be the nucleus partner for this ministries. From the Melbourne camp, i know that the church community there have the idea to set up Australia Lifeteam there. Purposely to help the Australia Church in developing their teenager and enable them to find their purpose of life. I felt like God is calling to me. But i not sure whether this is the calling from God is merely my own dream.....
To serve there, i need to get a permanent resident status there and for the foreigner like me, the easiest way is to find a job there. The company that i worked now had a team at Australia, i felt like really wan to transfer from Sarawak to Australia. From the night sharing with Pastor Kwan, he do encouraged me to take this step seriously and bravely. He mentioned the limited of those servant at Australia and if they really wan to set up this Australia team, they need more people to join them especially those who are more experience. I dare to take this challenge but are this really a good choice for me?? i dunno...
Honestly, i felt hard to put down all my thing in Malaysia and just fly over to serve there. My family, my career, my fren, my gf and many others.... Everything is just fine and good for me now if i stay in Sarawak, but i dunno why i still of thinking of this matter currently. i know the gospel factory in Australia is big. I really wan to help them but how?? Just feel like God is calling me. But i need more prayer to justify it. Coz my decision will affect most of the things now....
Now staying in KL, waiting for my training on Monday. On 29/8-31/8, i will serve in Lifegame Camp at Pontianak, Indonesia. Pray for me and hope God will speak to me that time. God, please lead my way, listen Your will but not my hope. Prepare everything for me and provide me with wisdom to make this decision. When the time come, i will follow your plan coz You noe me better than others in this world. Hope my serving will glorify Your name in this world.
2010年7月30日星期五
身在居銮...
不知不觉步入这个社会已经快一个月。感觉呢....还不错。身在居銮的我，在此跟你们分享我这个月的点点滴滴。
呵呵...很感恩，第一份面试的工作就成功被录取了。不是因为我的成绩，不是因为我的口才，不是因为我的外表，而是那从我出世那天就一直陪伴我的上帝给我的恩典。所以呢...虽然薪水不怎么高，但我知道上帝的带领必定是最好的。
从当初想继续修念硕士课程到选择职场事奉，真的挣扎了很久。但回想自己当初答应上帝的事，就选择了工作咯。
很感恩，我的老板也是一位基督徒，所以我的工作环境也是相当不错咯（虽然我比较常都是在居銮）。呵呵...我的工作范围乃是为我们的客户提供一些瓷砖上的技术服务。因我的公司是以中国成釉和印油为生意的，所以当客户需要我们对他们的产品进行一些测试时，我就要到处去帮忙他们解决问题咯。因此呢，公司就给了我一架小小的avanza.方便我到处跑动咯。
别看一片小小的瓷砖，它背后的故事可多呢。我这只菜鸟呢，呵呵...还在慢慢和它培养感情咯。嘻嘻...当总有一天，我会征服它的。
步入社会后，特别的想念远在砂州的家人，因我现在除了工作，真的没有其他的事可以做了，也没多余的空闲时间。所以呢...各位正在看这篇文章的你，要把握时间多多陪陪家人哦...
今晚居銮下着雨，30/7。是我大专的迎新生活营。唉....但明天周末，我还需要上半天的班呢。真羡慕这群大专生，但也希望他们能好好享受这个营会，也享受四年的大学生活，找到上帝在他们人生当中的意义和目标。
今夜我还是一个人睡，陪伴我的只是我的电脑和刚刚装好的宽频服务，让我能在这里和你们分享我现在的生活。很想念家人，很想念我心中的那个她（但她去了迎新营，不知道有没有挂念我咯，呵呵...），很想念在沙登的食物，夜生活，和沙登的大家。
但我知道无论我身在何处，我的上帝必与我同在。求主引领我走当走的路，跑当跑的道，在这充满诱惑的社会还能站立的住，清楚知道自己身份，使命，活出见证， 追求属灵生命的成长，让我这微小的生命能为主做更大的事。
呵呵...很感恩，第一份面试的工作就成功被录取了。不是因为我的成绩，不是因为我的口才，不是因为我的外表，而是那从我出世那天就一直陪伴我的上帝给我的恩典。所以呢...虽然薪水不怎么高，但我知道上帝的带领必定是最好的。
从当初想继续修念硕士课程到选择职场事奉，真的挣扎了很久。但回想自己当初答应上帝的事，就选择了工作咯。
很感恩，我的老板也是一位基督徒，所以我的工作环境也是相当不错咯（虽然我比较常都是在居銮）。呵呵...我的工作范围乃是为我们的客户提供一些瓷砖上的技术服务。因我的公司是以中国成釉和印油为生意的，所以当客户需要我们对他们的产品进行一些测试时，我就要到处去帮忙他们解决问题咯。因此呢，公司就给了我一架小小的avanza.方便我到处跑动咯。
别看一片小小的瓷砖，它背后的故事可多呢。我这只菜鸟呢，呵呵...还在慢慢和它培养感情咯。嘻嘻...当总有一天，我会征服它的。
步入社会后，特别的想念远在砂州的家人，因我现在除了工作，真的没有其他的事可以做了，也没多余的空闲时间。所以呢...各位正在看这篇文章的你，要把握时间多多陪陪家人哦...
今晚居銮下着雨，30/7。是我大专的迎新生活营。唉....但明天周末，我还需要上半天的班呢。真羡慕这群大专生，但也希望他们能好好享受这个营会，也享受四年的大学生活，找到上帝在他们人生当中的意义和目标。
今夜我还是一个人睡，陪伴我的只是我的电脑和刚刚装好的宽频服务，让我能在这里和你们分享我现在的生活。很想念家人，很想念我心中的那个她（但她去了迎新营，不知道有没有挂念我咯，呵呵...），很想念在沙登的食物，夜生活，和沙登的大家。
但我知道无论我身在何处，我的上帝必与我同在。求主引领我走当走的路，跑当跑的道，在这充满诱惑的社会还能站立的住，清楚知道自己身份，使命，活出见证， 追求属灵生命的成长，让我这微小的生命能为主做更大的事。
2010年3月2日星期二
三月份-熬过就好...
迈进了三月，过了农历新年，过了元宵节，是时候开始象牙塔的忙碌生活了...
想想自己也好久没动动自己的天地了，就随心所欲，畅所欲谈咯...
渐渐感到无形的压力正蚕食我的精神。一向自认为抗压力强的我，有种透不过气的感觉...接二连三的科系呈现，毕业计划案，毕业论文，还没着落的硕士课程，硕士的费用，教会的事奉，真有种让人窒息的感觉...
31/3....这天将是我的毕业论文的呈现。望着一摞摞还没完成的试验，摆不上台的资料。我到底该怎么做?就算现在每天废寝忘食的躲在实验室中埋头苦干，相信也是不能在短期内完成的...唉...后悔当初不更加努力...
自己的理想是继续深造，修读硕士课程。但是笔下还是还没找到适合的监督教授....目前有找了一个...但给自己的感觉是教授在拖延时间。11/3就是硕士课程的促销展了。到时报名的话可以免去一笔费用。可是呢...都还没找到监督教授，哪来的论文题目，没有题目，我又怎么能申请助学金呢...
突然感觉自己的时间不够用...感觉到自己也有完成不了的事...真的很累很累...
我到底该怎么做呢？？
有人说压力可以让一个人成长，但有没有人可以告诉我，如果负荷不了当前的压力，该如何呢...
每次只能跟自己说，要完全的交托给上帝...
是的。尽然都选择交托了，就该完全的顺服啊...
这些道理以前就知道了。但，为什么现在要应用在自己身上却又那么的困难呢...
需要上帝的带领，需要挚爱的鼓励和支持，需要正看这篇文章的你的代祷....
跟自己说就这么一个月，我要熬过去，就只有这么一个月...
希望这个月快点结束...让我重拾开朗的心情...
想想自己也好久没动动自己的天地了，就随心所欲，畅所欲谈咯...
渐渐感到无形的压力正蚕食我的精神。一向自认为抗压力强的我，有种透不过气的感觉...接二连三的科系呈现，毕业计划案，毕业论文，还没着落的硕士课程，硕士的费用，教会的事奉，真有种让人窒息的感觉...
31/3....这天将是我的毕业论文的呈现。望着一摞摞还没完成的试验，摆不上台的资料。我到底该怎么做?就算现在每天废寝忘食的躲在实验室中埋头苦干，相信也是不能在短期内完成的...唉...后悔当初不更加努力...
自己的理想是继续深造，修读硕士课程。但是笔下还是还没找到适合的监督教授....目前有找了一个...但给自己的感觉是教授在拖延时间。11/3就是硕士课程的促销展了。到时报名的话可以免去一笔费用。可是呢...都还没找到监督教授，哪来的论文题目，没有题目，我又怎么能申请助学金呢...
突然感觉自己的时间不够用...感觉到自己也有完成不了的事...真的很累很累...
我到底该怎么做呢？？
有人说压力可以让一个人成长，但有没有人可以告诉我，如果负荷不了当前的压力，该如何呢...
每次只能跟自己说，要完全的交托给上帝...
是的。尽然都选择交托了，就该完全的顺服啊...
这些道理以前就知道了。但，为什么现在要应用在自己身上却又那么的困难呢...
需要上帝的带领，需要挚爱的鼓励和支持，需要正看这篇文章的你的代祷....
跟自己说就这么一个月，我要熬过去，就只有这么一个月...
希望这个月快点结束...让我重拾开朗的心情...
2010年1月4日星期一
新的一年
2010年已经迈进了第四天。有人说，新的一年，新气象，新希望。是的。新的一年一些事情可以重新开始，一些事情可以继续去更新，一些事情可以继续去探讨噢..
新的一年，给自己立下了跟神的约定。希望自己和上帝的关系会更加密切，灵命继续被眺望，继续在主爱中成长。参加了团契所举办的进修营。心里满怀期待，希望上帝能透过这个营会跟我说话。让我在毕业前建立坚固的信仰根基，往后能在职场上继续为主得着更多的灵魂。决定在新的一年念完整本圣经。这可是我成为信徒以来，从来都没做过的事哦。让我能透过读经，从这本宝贝中听见主对我的说话。
新的一年，该好好想想自己将来该走的路了。目前呢有两条路可以做选择。一，留下来继续深造，修读我的硕士课程。这也是笔下我希望我会走的路。希望透过这个进修可以更加预备我自己来进入职场的工作。二，步入职场，开始我日出而作，日落而息的日子。这条路的益处是我可以早日存到我的房子及汽车的头期，拥有自己的产业。目前可以说是前途茫茫，不知道哪一条才是合神心意的道路。但，我清楚的跟上帝说了，我愿意顺服祂的带领，因祂的带领必定是最美好的。
夜深人静，总是特别容易思念远方的家人。新的一年，希望家人可以过得平安。希望爸爸，弟弟可以接受福音。所以我希望我能够用我的生命去影响他们。求主给我亮光，教导我说该说的话，并求圣灵在他们心中动工，感动他们，使他们能归向主基督。
新的一年，也希望带点祝福给身边的人。
求学的，学业猛进...
做工的，事业蒸蒸日上...
有家庭的，婚姻幸福美满...
谈恋爱的，珍惜眼前人...
预备谈恋爱的，好好借着祷告，勇敢的去珍惜该珍惜的人...
朋友们，加油哦！！
新的一年，给自己立下了跟神的约定。希望自己和上帝的关系会更加密切，灵命继续被眺望，继续在主爱中成长。参加了团契所举办的进修营。心里满怀期待，希望上帝能透过这个营会跟我说话。让我在毕业前建立坚固的信仰根基，往后能在职场上继续为主得着更多的灵魂。决定在新的一年念完整本圣经。这可是我成为信徒以来，从来都没做过的事哦。让我能透过读经，从这本宝贝中听见主对我的说话。
新的一年，该好好想想自己将来该走的路了。目前呢有两条路可以做选择。一，留下来继续深造，修读我的硕士课程。这也是笔下我希望我会走的路。希望透过这个进修可以更加预备我自己来进入职场的工作。二，步入职场，开始我日出而作，日落而息的日子。这条路的益处是我可以早日存到我的房子及汽车的头期，拥有自己的产业。目前可以说是前途茫茫，不知道哪一条才是合神心意的道路。但，我清楚的跟上帝说了，我愿意顺服祂的带领，因祂的带领必定是最美好的。
夜深人静，总是特别容易思念远方的家人。新的一年，希望家人可以过得平安。希望爸爸，弟弟可以接受福音。所以我希望我能够用我的生命去影响他们。求主给我亮光，教导我说该说的话，并求圣灵在他们心中动工，感动他们，使他们能归向主基督。
新的一年，也希望带点祝福给身边的人。
求学的，学业猛进...
做工的，事业蒸蒸日上...
有家庭的，婚姻幸福美满...
谈恋爱的，珍惜眼前人...
预备谈恋爱的，好好借着祷告，勇敢的去珍惜该珍惜的人...
朋友们，加油哦！！
2009年12月22日星期二
假期随谈
回到了象牙塔的生活，又回到了这个熟悉的地方。假期中在老家，心里就一直说要回到沙登，因为呢...家里太闷了啦。但在冬至的今天，突然怀念起老妈家乡的菜肴...
唉...人真的很矛盾哦。但是呢，不想了。既然都做了决定，就要勇敢的走下去咯。呵呵...
新学期又要开始了。又有忙不完的功课，忙不完的事奉，念不完的书...但这已经是自己的最后一个学期了。虽然心里是很想留下来继续深造，但未来可不是自己来决定的哦。
新学期，给自己新的挑战。要减肥成功哦，为了我的新年衣服。大肚腩，我跟你拼了！！！！
哈哈，刚才和一群大哥哥大姐姐一起亲手搓汤圆吃。感觉好幸福。有人说汤圆要吃两粒，成双成对，代表圆满的意思。不错，虽然我人在沙登，但我的心依然跟诗巫老家的家人联系在一起呢...
又到了圣诞季节，属于祝福人的季节。
朋友们，你们为你们身边关心的人献上你们的祝福了吗??
唉...人真的很矛盾哦。但是呢，不想了。既然都做了决定，就要勇敢的走下去咯。呵呵...
新学期又要开始了。又有忙不完的功课，忙不完的事奉，念不完的书...但这已经是自己的最后一个学期了。虽然心里是很想留下来继续深造，但未来可不是自己来决定的哦。
新学期，给自己新的挑战。要减肥成功哦，为了我的新年衣服。大肚腩，我跟你拼了！！！！
哈哈，刚才和一群大哥哥大姐姐一起亲手搓汤圆吃。感觉好幸福。有人说汤圆要吃两粒，成双成对，代表圆满的意思。不错，虽然我人在沙登，但我的心依然跟诗巫老家的家人联系在一起呢...
又到了圣诞季节，属于祝福人的季节。
朋友们，你们为你们身边关心的人献上你们的祝福了吗??
2009年11月1日星期日
考试季节联想-要有见证
基督徒...
言行举止都应该有见证...
千万别成为别人的绊脚石哦...
跟异性相处也应该有见证...
朋友有朋友的界限...
如果自己的举动已让当事人误会了，就应该悬崖勒马...
我们是上帝在世上的代表，可要好好照顾自己的形象哦，要有见证...
有人告诉我，要好好的去爱一个人...
当你自己都不确定自己是否爱一个人时，就应该选择有界限的相处...
保护自己，也保护对方...
但如果已经确定对方是自己要走一生的人了，就好好珍惜对方...
因为下一个不一定比这个好...
但，凡事还是要藉着祷告...
千万别让自己的情绪思维误解了创造主美好的旨意...
考试的季节...
也是适合祝福人的季节...
您为你心中的那个她，那群朋友...
献上祝福了吗？？
言行举止都应该有见证...
千万别成为别人的绊脚石哦...
跟异性相处也应该有见证...
朋友有朋友的界限...
如果自己的举动已让当事人误会了，就应该悬崖勒马...
我们是上帝在世上的代表，可要好好照顾自己的形象哦，要有见证...
有人告诉我，要好好的去爱一个人...
当你自己都不确定自己是否爱一个人时，就应该选择有界限的相处...
保护自己，也保护对方...
但如果已经确定对方是自己要走一生的人了，就好好珍惜对方...
因为下一个不一定比这个好...
但，凡事还是要藉着祷告...
千万别让自己的情绪思维误解了创造主美好的旨意...
考试的季节...
也是适合祝福人的季节...
您为你心中的那个她，那群朋友...
献上祝福了吗？？
2009年10月15日星期四
幸福
幸福是什么？？
有幸的在昨天帮忙自己的好友和他的女友一起渡过22岁的生日...
简单的生日歌，普通的蛋糕，温馨的祝福，已足以让女生泪流满面，这就是幸福了...
每天清晨可以看到耀眼的旭日，就是一种幸福...
呼吸着新鲜的空气，啃咬妈妈预备的爱心早餐，就是一种幸福...
走出家门，见到青葱的树木，虫鸣鸟叫，就是一种幸福...
到达属于自己的天空，见到知心的朋友，无拘无束的分享昨晚的电视节目，就是一种幸福...
幸福其实很简单。很多人拥有了， 却不懂得去珍惜。不停的埋怨，无止境的欲望，人性的堕落，往往使人对幸福失去了确实的认定。
人往往会认为自己属于宇宙中最不幸福的一个。但，其实比起其他更不幸的人，正在阅读这篇文章的你我，真的好幸福哦...
幸福很简单。只要自己身边的人因为自己而感到平安，快乐，就是幸福了。
幸福不是看你自己拥有了多少，抓住了多少东西；幸福是你失去了多少，牺牲了多少，而别人因你的付出，而得到快乐。这就是幸福...
原来自己是幸福的一个...只要身边的人开心，幸福，那自己也会觉得幸福咯...
你们....觉得幸福吗??
有幸的在昨天帮忙自己的好友和他的女友一起渡过22岁的生日...
简单的生日歌，普通的蛋糕，温馨的祝福，已足以让女生泪流满面，这就是幸福了...
每天清晨可以看到耀眼的旭日，就是一种幸福...
呼吸着新鲜的空气，啃咬妈妈预备的爱心早餐，就是一种幸福...
走出家门，见到青葱的树木，虫鸣鸟叫，就是一种幸福...
到达属于自己的天空，见到知心的朋友，无拘无束的分享昨晚的电视节目，就是一种幸福...
幸福其实很简单。很多人拥有了， 却不懂得去珍惜。不停的埋怨，无止境的欲望，人性的堕落，往往使人对幸福失去了确实的认定。
人往往会认为自己属于宇宙中最不幸福的一个。但，其实比起其他更不幸的人，正在阅读这篇文章的你我，真的好幸福哦...
幸福很简单。只要自己身边的人因为自己而感到平安，快乐，就是幸福了。
幸福不是看你自己拥有了多少，抓住了多少东西；幸福是你失去了多少，牺牲了多少，而别人因你的付出，而得到快乐。这就是幸福...
原来自己是幸福的一个...只要身边的人开心，幸福，那自己也会觉得幸福咯...
你们....觉得幸福吗??
2009年10月12日星期一
2009年10月3日星期六
中秋反思
着落在周末的中秋节，让身在异乡的游子竟然燃起了一丝丝思乡的情怀...
在象牙塔追寻自己的里程碑已最后一年了，逢年过节都是和这里的家乡朋友一起渡过；有朋友的陪伴，至少那颗想家的心情，暂时性的平复下来...
或许今年是最后一年的大学生涯，又或许自己可能继续自己的梦想，修读硕士课程，这样可能明年的同时期，我也是在这块不属于自己的土地上过我的中秋节...
拨了一通电话回家，只为了听听家人的声音...默默支持我的双亲，最了解我的弟弟，会跟我撒娇的小妹...曾几何时，我才知道，独立性格的我，也会思念他们...
这几天，透过不同的分享，不同的分析，彼此的挑战，逐渐让自己更加明白家人的重要性...
挑战自己跟将要生日的爸爸说声“爸爸，我爱你”...
但原来平时那个口沫横飞的我，竟然会结巴，说不出来呢...可笑...
是自己太含蓄吗？还是对父亲的爱不够深呢？不知道...
自私的希望以后自己的宝贝可以对自己撒娇的说出这五个字，但现在自己却说不出口...
给自己挑战，一定要在象牙塔生涯结束前，跟养育我的双亲说出这番话...
今晚的中秋晚会，有点期待，毕竟它现在是我唯一的寄托...
今年的中秋节，会是一个怎样的中秋呢...
今夜，应该看不到夜空星吧...
因，今夜的皎洁明月，夺去了夜空星的光芒...
中秋快乐...
在象牙塔追寻自己的里程碑已最后一年了，逢年过节都是和这里的家乡朋友一起渡过；有朋友的陪伴，至少那颗想家的心情，暂时性的平复下来...
或许今年是最后一年的大学生涯，又或许自己可能继续自己的梦想，修读硕士课程，这样可能明年的同时期，我也是在这块不属于自己的土地上过我的中秋节...
拨了一通电话回家，只为了听听家人的声音...默默支持我的双亲，最了解我的弟弟，会跟我撒娇的小妹...曾几何时，我才知道，独立性格的我，也会思念他们...
这几天，透过不同的分享，不同的分析，彼此的挑战，逐渐让自己更加明白家人的重要性...
挑战自己跟将要生日的爸爸说声“爸爸，我爱你”...
但原来平时那个口沫横飞的我，竟然会结巴，说不出来呢...可笑...
是自己太含蓄吗？还是对父亲的爱不够深呢？不知道...
自私的希望以后自己的宝贝可以对自己撒娇的说出这五个字，但现在自己却说不出口...
给自己挑战，一定要在象牙塔生涯结束前，跟养育我的双亲说出这番话...
今晚的中秋晚会，有点期待，毕竟它现在是我唯一的寄托...
今年的中秋节，会是一个怎样的中秋呢...
今夜，应该看不到夜空星吧...
因，今夜的皎洁明月，夺去了夜空星的光芒...
中秋快乐...
2009年9月26日星期六
金马伦联想
三天的金马伦之旅，在我拖着疲惫的身躯，步向沙登的住家，而悄悄地画上了句点...
三天的相处，三天的分享，三天的同欢乐，为着是团契2010年一整年的事工，以及主内弟兄姐妹在未来的路上一起同工，一起服侍，而建立了稳固的基础...
象牙塔的三年生活，第一次驻足于传闻中的金马伦土地上...如用蓬莱仙境来描述，似乎夸张了点；如用不食人间烟火，又把金马伦逐渐迈向天然旅游景点的梦想，置之不顾...总之，亲身去经历金马伦带给您的心灵洗涤，你才明白她的真正面目...
夜晚，拿了张椅子坐在公寓的阳台上，抬头观看金马伦的夜景...
少了都市的喧哗，却多了大自然的一分宁静...
合上双眼，用耳朵和心去感受这个时刻...
嗯...
不时间耳朵会传来虫鸣的声音，蟾蜍的咕呱声，为宁静的夜晚添上了丝丝交响曲...
夜间的凉风轻轻滑过脸颊，让自己回到童年，萎缩在双亲怀抱撒娇的情形...突然有点想家了...
不远处可以隐约听到情侣漫步在月光下的脚步声...有点羡慕他们...但我不寂寞...因上帝正在天上看着我，陪伴着我呢...
心中有个小小的愿望...是这时有感而发...
好想就此离开都市的生活，定居在金马伦...
白天和爱妻到自家的后院干活...男耕女织...我们的爱情结晶在不远处嬉戏...
晚间...和爱妻相依看夜景，谈心...边哄着孩子入睡...
如此诗情画意的画面，应该只在梦中出现吧...
回到了沙登，回到了象牙塔，回到了当初为了追求梦想而漂洋过海的地方...
一切又得开始了...但自己的心依然牵挂着金马伦的时光...
何时，才能再回去一次呢...
三天的相处，三天的分享，三天的同欢乐，为着是团契2010年一整年的事工，以及主内弟兄姐妹在未来的路上一起同工，一起服侍，而建立了稳固的基础...
象牙塔的三年生活，第一次驻足于传闻中的金马伦土地上...如用蓬莱仙境来描述，似乎夸张了点；如用不食人间烟火，又把金马伦逐渐迈向天然旅游景点的梦想，置之不顾...总之，亲身去经历金马伦带给您的心灵洗涤，你才明白她的真正面目...
夜晚，拿了张椅子坐在公寓的阳台上，抬头观看金马伦的夜景...
少了都市的喧哗，却多了大自然的一分宁静...
合上双眼，用耳朵和心去感受这个时刻...
嗯...
不时间耳朵会传来虫鸣的声音，蟾蜍的咕呱声，为宁静的夜晚添上了丝丝交响曲...
夜间的凉风轻轻滑过脸颊，让自己回到童年，萎缩在双亲怀抱撒娇的情形...突然有点想家了...
不远处可以隐约听到情侣漫步在月光下的脚步声...有点羡慕他们...但我不寂寞...因上帝正在天上看着我，陪伴着我呢...
心中有个小小的愿望...是这时有感而发...
好想就此离开都市的生活，定居在金马伦...
白天和爱妻到自家的后院干活...男耕女织...我们的爱情结晶在不远处嬉戏...
晚间...和爱妻相依看夜景，谈心...边哄着孩子入睡...
如此诗情画意的画面，应该只在梦中出现吧...
回到了沙登，回到了象牙塔，回到了当初为了追求梦想而漂洋过海的地方...
一切又得开始了...但自己的心依然牵挂着金马伦的时光...
何时，才能再回去一次呢...
2009年9月21日星期一
一个人，一只脚
当一个人能健康的行走在街上时，他是不是该感恩自己有双完好无缺的脚呢...
当一个人能用双脚去闯出属于自己的那片天空时，可曾想过对自己的双亲说声谢谢呢...
当一个人走到了事业的顶端，眺望背后自己曾经的付出，可曾抚摸烙印在双脚上的疤痕呢...
当一个人走到了人生的尽头，回眸一笑，自己的一生有真正的好好为一些珍贵的事物而活吗...
当一个人失去了双脚时，试着用内心的悲痛，去体验那些失去至情性命的家属的感受...
当一个人受伤了一只脚，试着笑着跟人说“我很幸福”，因为我没有失去我的双脚...
夜空星的心情总是围着身边的事物而变化无穷...有人说“你不累吗”....但我何累之有呢...因夜空的心情只停留在黑色的夜晚...隔日旭日高照，散发出刺眼的光芒时，属于夜空的心情，又一次的被新生命的开始，而逐渐开朗起来...夜空心情只属于短暂的宣泄，因夜里的孤寂，往往使人向往那未知的明天...
当一个人能用双脚去闯出属于自己的那片天空时，可曾想过对自己的双亲说声谢谢呢...
当一个人走到了事业的顶端，眺望背后自己曾经的付出，可曾抚摸烙印在双脚上的疤痕呢...
当一个人走到了人生的尽头，回眸一笑，自己的一生有真正的好好为一些珍贵的事物而活吗...
当一个人失去了双脚时，试着用内心的悲痛，去体验那些失去至情性命的家属的感受...
当一个人受伤了一只脚，试着笑着跟人说“我很幸福”，因为我没有失去我的双脚...
夜空星的心情总是围着身边的事物而变化无穷...有人说“你不累吗”....但我何累之有呢...因夜空的心情只停留在黑色的夜晚...隔日旭日高照，散发出刺眼的光芒时，属于夜空的心情，又一次的被新生命的开始，而逐渐开朗起来...夜空心情只属于短暂的宣泄，因夜里的孤寂，往往使人向往那未知的明天...
2009年9月19日星期六
小小的爱心
今夜又是一个难忘的经历。原本和团契的契友去参加加影堂的大专团契。但却发生了一件让我非常内疚的事...
风尘仆仆的巴士停在加影堂的大门前。我和朋友们都有说有笑的下巴士。但我下巴士时，我不晓得是巴士停泊的问题还是什么...我觉得我们从巴士上要着落时非常的不容易。尤其是对姐妹。而当时跟在我后面的就是一位姐妹。我尽然会犹豫需不需要提醒她或者伸出我的手来拉她一把。结果就在犹豫当儿，我只听见“啪”一声，回头一看，那位姐妹跌坐在地上，扶着自己的右脚脚踝，留下了眼泪。我后悔了...陪了那位姐妹去包扎后...无数的思考在我脑海中徘徊...
当一个人在一瞬间失去了他的怜悯之心时，他会怎么做呢？
当一个人对爱心失去了坚持感时，对人，对事，他会有什么看见呢？
一瞬间的犹豫，可能会对其他人带来伤害...
杀那间的爱心，却可以使其他的人因为我们而得到保护...
或许我们不知道，小小的爱心真的可以保护到你身边的人..。
今晚的夜空，多了一颗需要保护的夜星...
风尘仆仆的巴士停在加影堂的大门前。我和朋友们都有说有笑的下巴士。但我下巴士时，我不晓得是巴士停泊的问题还是什么...我觉得我们从巴士上要着落时非常的不容易。尤其是对姐妹。而当时跟在我后面的就是一位姐妹。我尽然会犹豫需不需要提醒她或者伸出我的手来拉她一把。结果就在犹豫当儿，我只听见“啪”一声，回头一看，那位姐妹跌坐在地上，扶着自己的右脚脚踝，留下了眼泪。我后悔了...陪了那位姐妹去包扎后...无数的思考在我脑海中徘徊...
当一个人在一瞬间失去了他的怜悯之心时，他会怎么做呢？
当一个人对爱心失去了坚持感时，对人，对事，他会有什么看见呢？
一瞬间的犹豫，可能会对其他人带来伤害...
杀那间的爱心，却可以使其他的人因为我们而得到保护...
或许我们不知道，小小的爱心真的可以保护到你身边的人..。
今晚的夜空，多了一颗需要保护的夜星...
2009年9月7日星期一
生日反思
昨晚和教会的一群弟兄姐妹在主席家烧烤吃东西，顺便帮我们的豆豆王子庆祝他的23岁生日...
温馨的场面，朋友们的陪伴，无限的祝福...
但，豆豆重复的说了一句话...他希望他最心爱的她现在在他身边和他一同分享这份喜悦...
是的。但我们又最开心的事时，我们最想和最心爱的人分享...
但我呢...孤身一人...脑海依然再思念没有出席的她...
好多人劝该放下这段感情，让自己脱离感情的捆绑...谈何容易呢...
如我只用短短的三个月就放下这段十个月的感情，那我就不配在这里发表我的心情故事了...
其实我从来都不想放下...朋友们，原谅我的执著...因我觉得很可惜...
她是一个好女生...一个在各方面都非常好的女生...不然，我也不会喜欢上她...
心里有句话告诉我...她还没有预备好自己去开始一段感情...
所以她选择放下...存着内疚感的放下...
我不怪她...因我真的喜欢她...
爱不是要包容她的一切吗？？
我只是觉得有遗憾...遗憾她不给自己多一点时间，多一点机会，也给我多一个机会...
感情是需要两个人的委身，两个人的付出...
我清楚的知道，现在的我已经预备好了..但她还没有...
我也不知道自己是不是在等待什么...一个肯定的拒绝答案...还是一个继续追求的动力...
但我知道，在我还在喜欢这个女生的时候，我会用我的真心去对她...
或许这是一个赌注，我可能什么也得不到...
但至少以后我不会后悔，因曾经有一个女生肯让我为她努力过...
我们的故事还不是一个结束...
但我知道...上帝会为我们预备的...
预备我们去接纳对方...还是预备我们去开始新的一段感情...
不管结果如何...我都愿意顺服...
因上帝预备的是最美好，最适合我们的...
温馨的场面，朋友们的陪伴，无限的祝福...
但，豆豆重复的说了一句话...他希望他最心爱的她现在在他身边和他一同分享这份喜悦...
是的。但我们又最开心的事时，我们最想和最心爱的人分享...
但我呢...孤身一人...脑海依然再思念没有出席的她...
好多人劝该放下这段感情，让自己脱离感情的捆绑...谈何容易呢...
如我只用短短的三个月就放下这段十个月的感情，那我就不配在这里发表我的心情故事了...
其实我从来都不想放下...朋友们，原谅我的执著...因我觉得很可惜...
她是一个好女生...一个在各方面都非常好的女生...不然，我也不会喜欢上她...
心里有句话告诉我...她还没有预备好自己去开始一段感情...
所以她选择放下...存着内疚感的放下...
我不怪她...因我真的喜欢她...
爱不是要包容她的一切吗？？
我只是觉得有遗憾...遗憾她不给自己多一点时间，多一点机会，也给我多一个机会...
感情是需要两个人的委身，两个人的付出...
我清楚的知道，现在的我已经预备好了..但她还没有...
我也不知道自己是不是在等待什么...一个肯定的拒绝答案...还是一个继续追求的动力...
但我知道，在我还在喜欢这个女生的时候，我会用我的真心去对她...
或许这是一个赌注，我可能什么也得不到...
但至少以后我不会后悔，因曾经有一个女生肯让我为她努力过...
我们的故事还不是一个结束...
但我知道...上帝会为我们预备的...
预备我们去接纳对方...还是预备我们去开始新的一段感情...
不管结果如何...我都愿意顺服...
因上帝预备的是最美好，最适合我们的...
2009年9月2日星期三
星期三反思
难熬的星期三终于在mamak档画上了句号...今天我可面对两场的presentation。早上的是我的final year proposal presentation。从昨晚到今天到学校的期间，内心总是忐忑不安。以前在班上presentation对我来说总是小菜一幢，没什么困难的。但不知道为什么今天的presentation,我竟然会面对前所未有的紧张。感谢主，就这样的有惊无险，我过了一关。
晚上时是我的catalysis presentation。我需要去present一个完全没有学过的技巧。对我来说又是一个考验了。我和组员就好比临时的讲师，在全班系友前，把我们的了解清清楚楚的解释给他们听。感恩的事，我们一组竟然得到了最高分。这是我们课系历史以来从这位刁难人讲师中得到最高的分数。
就这样的渡过了一天，当整天中所承受的压力和紧绷的心情，真的是让人觉得好累好累。但，曲终人散...终于可以好好的喘一口气了...
今夜的夜空，有星星吗...
晚上时是我的catalysis presentation。我需要去present一个完全没有学过的技巧。对我来说又是一个考验了。我和组员就好比临时的讲师，在全班系友前，把我们的了解清清楚楚的解释给他们听。感恩的事，我们一组竟然得到了最高分。这是我们课系历史以来从这位刁难人讲师中得到最高的分数。
就这样的渡过了一天，当整天中所承受的压力和紧绷的心情，真的是让人觉得好累好累。但，曲终人散...终于可以好好的喘一口气了...
今夜的夜空，有星星吗...
2009年8月31日星期一
2009年8月22日星期六
夜间冥思
如果星星只在晚上出现的话，那白天它去了哪儿呢...
如果旭日的出现只为人带来温暖，那夜间人们寂寞时，它在哪儿呢...
如果夜空的世界里，只有他自己，那可怜或许是他的代名词...
好久没有孤独一个人看夜景了...不是不开心，不是烦恼，不是压力大，不是有心事...
乃是希望自己拥有自己的时间...一个让自己的思绪停顿下来，让紧绷的肌肉休息的时间...
曾经幻想和心爱的人相依看月光，赏夜景...
但有些时候，觉得一个人也不错...
没有了心爱人的温暖，却多了萤火虫的陪伴...
以前总是把目光停留在想关心的人身上...
现在才发觉原来这世上有许多东西也值得我们去欣赏，去留念...
深深的吸了一口气，今夜好冷哦...
但心却是温暖的...
带着那份放不开的执著，忘不了的回忆...
我合上了眼睛...
享受夜空宁静为我带来的心灵洗礼...
如果旭日的出现只为人带来温暖，那夜间人们寂寞时，它在哪儿呢...
如果夜空的世界里，只有他自己，那可怜或许是他的代名词...
好久没有孤独一个人看夜景了...不是不开心，不是烦恼，不是压力大，不是有心事...
乃是希望自己拥有自己的时间...一个让自己的思绪停顿下来，让紧绷的肌肉休息的时间...
曾经幻想和心爱的人相依看月光，赏夜景...
但有些时候，觉得一个人也不错...
没有了心爱人的温暖，却多了萤火虫的陪伴...
以前总是把目光停留在想关心的人身上...
现在才发觉原来这世上有许多东西也值得我们去欣赏，去留念...
深深的吸了一口气，今夜好冷哦...
但心却是温暖的...
带着那份放不开的执著，忘不了的回忆...
我合上了眼睛...
享受夜空宁静为我带来的心灵洗礼...
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